Fuck, I’m a manifestor. Now what? Impact
IMPACT [verb] - /ɪmˈpakt,ˈɪmpakt/
Come into forcible contact with another object
"the shell impacted twenty yards away"
Similar:
crash into, smash into, collide with, be in collision with, hit, strike, ram, smack into, slam into, bang into, cannon into, plow into, meet head-on, dash against
To be honest, there is not much to say about this topic.
As Manifestors, we are not seeking to have an impact.
We are impact.
We impact immediately and all the time.
It's our aura.
We are constantly communicating, even when not speaking.
Entering a room, we impact.
The way we move, we impact.
When we laugh, we impact.
When we smile, we impact.
We crack the spaces we are in, densely pushing into the other with our aura, which can be uncomfortable for some who then choose to reject us.
Our impact comes with the repelling aura; as we learned in that blog, not everyone is here for it.
We are not meant to initiate everyone we meet with our impact, but we impact everyone we meet.
(More about initiating in a later blog).
Because we are designed with our closed and repelling aura, there will be an impact on the other. Our aura pushes into them, getting them to move out of our way.
What I have found to be true is that it is crucial to understand how I impact others to know how I can mature in my communication. There is a certain level of responsibility that comes with this impactful aura. That is my personal opinion. Take it or leave it.
In my experience, I have noticed that when I:
- explode through my sensitivity
- my channel of structuring is not invited
- when I am not open and in the mood but yet participate
that it has a very jarring and negative impact on the other.
I believe that a mature manifestor takes responsibility for the impactful creatures they are.
What do I mean by that?
What ripple effects am I sharing with the world?
Where can I show up with a mindful approach to my Genius to Freak channel? Can I sit with that insight without the not-self need to prove my worth coming into play? How can I notice when unhealthy tendencies of the defied Ajna show up? So that when my insight is invited, the freaky message will be received, and I will be left with peace.
How can I honor my channel of openness and when I am in the mood - or not? How can I notice when the mood is not there, and will I be brave enough to make sure that I can stop and not let the not-self of my undefined sacral take over and not know when enough is enough?
When I honor this, and when I am in the mood, I will be able to listen to you with depth and the attentive care I can. And when the timing is right, I leave a profound and perhaps life-changing impact on you with the magic I can create.
How can I ensure that I have my needs met and be aware of the principles I have for meeting the tribe's needs? So that I don't wrench up and explode without having awareness about why that happened? Can I be brave enough to meet my own needs first? Without the not-self taking the wheel and pushing too hard to prove myself?
A quick story...
I was running a restaurant, and we had problems with the printer for two days at work. The waiters were using notepads to give the kitchen orders, and there was so much frustration around this problem. I had been on the phone for endless hours with the company that delivered the printer, trying to figure out what the fuck was going on.
They told me it should be fine the next day, which was my day off. The person working that day had been informed that there might be an issue, and I told them to call me if it continued.
30 min before opening on a fully booked Friday night, the waiter called. Frustrated AF because it was still not working; how would this ever work on a Friday night.
I walk down to the restaurant, furious that this was fucking up my otherwise smooth-running restaurant. And, of course, my peace and day off.
I enter the restaurant, move FAST to the printer, and ask questions to gain the information needed to look further into it. This was almost a year into my learning about human design.
I stopped for a second to breathe, and I could notice the head chef and the waiter in my peripheral view, confused, scared, and a bit jarred. And I heard Ra's voice in my head: impactful aura, informing, bla bla bla.
I look up and say, "I am not mad at any of you, you have done exactly what I would have done, and this is NOT your fault. My energy and anger are not aimed at you."
I could see them both relax, and my waiter said loud, "fuck, I thought you were pissed at me now. That felt awful". I could hear in their voice the impact my aura had on them was intense and not pleasurable, to say the least.
That day was the first day I noticed my impact. That was the day I understood I have some responsibility that comes with this impactful aura.
A mindful approach to observing myself in this life is where I take responsibility for how my impact is shared. I cannot take responsibility for how it is received.
My aura will impact and repel those not ready to be initiated by me.
And dear manifestors, you need to find a way to be ok with that.
